-tape1 (Limited DSP version)

Music has always been a form of escapism for me. What started as a fun hobby in late 2017-2018 evolved into me saying what I have on my mind in 2020, intentionally not in my native language so no one around me knew what I was talking about. while that album did have some creative moments on it, in particular because of my inexperience in making music. the ramp up to where I am now was really slow. even though zziletape! was formally my third album, I dont think I would perfect the ideas until comes and goes from AI. my attempts to branch out also began here, where songs from GRADUATION like RARE Occasion (freestyle) and you can let go !!! as well as NOT MUCH, STOP MEe and FORGIVING MYSELF from single pack 1: 1st semester. although these songs lean fairly heavily out of the Trap / Hip Hop box I put myself with the first two releases under zzile!, I didnt feel the desire to really get out of my shell until I finished the two beat_tape tracks from single pack 2: difficulties, where I really got into it with the fun ideas, neglecting the focus I put into my amateurish writing and letting my experience in producing, which I do fifteen times as much as recording, really shine through.

I credit those two tracks as the main inspiration behind what lead to this mixtape. even if I released a fairly normal album in x3, I claimed multiple times that x3 will be the last normal album from me - my chance to prove that I can make commercially viable music as an non-commercially viable artist. I say that because the only persom Im proving anything to is myself - none of my irls actually care about what I make and dismiss it, and I understand that because I likely wont ever see them after uni, thats just the way life goes.

so, what would I do to counteract the pent up frustrations I have against how my journey as a musician through the online communities? well, nothing really. I kept chugging away, exploring many avenues and potential outlets. I talked about this a little in the individual descriptions for the songs on zzile! supporter package 2024, but I have been trying many things, whether it would be that Wave alias that never came alive, the zzalt! SoundCloud account which then housed a dozen instrumentals I planned to keep releasing weekly, the Also, be safe project and scattering my unworthy material across SoundCloud, Newgrounds and YouTube. this unworthy material excludes stuff like remixes I make, but includes stuff like >blues clues< and how yu feel?** from SoundCloud and comewatchthesunset along with other songs from Newgrounds. unworthy isnt really fair, because in reality, these songs didnt live up to the standard Ive set for myself internally, so these songs were an opportunity to make something out of my comfort zone and just put it out there.

and so I did. I kept putting stuff out there until at some point in 2024 I had put out three songs which had this boosted Electronic sound with a loose Hip Hop composition underneath - a sound that I call overblown. I was sending these songs off to the seas of Newgrounds as exclusives, never originally intended to go anywhere. but I added them to my humongous shuffle playlist and I kept queueing them up, first I did it in the release order, then I started twisting them. by the fourth time it clicked - this is the best opportunity for me to live up to what I said about x3. this is my opportunity to make overblown music a thing. I twisted the knife a few more times, feeling out the concept, and later got to work. after roughly 6 months of working part-time over the concept of overblown music, I can finally present you with -tape1 - a vision, an idea and anger, collected in a bottle and concentrated in just over 20 minutes.